Confessions - First Love

"r I stopped, you started chasing me. We started dating, shortly I thought I was falling in love. But now... you're gone. You used to make so much effort but now nothing. I'm the one initiating all the conversations, dates, and when I text you it takes literally hours to reply (once you waited 2 days to reply! and for no reason-- you just told me you didn't feel like it!). I don't feel very happy. I give you so much and I get very little in return. I don't even want much... man... I want SO little. Just a single text a day, just to let me know you're alive and happy and doing ok. B"

"Back in 8th grade(3-4 years ago), we fell in love, basic teen love story. Then, you said I was too clingy and crazy just because I texted every half an hour to see if you were done doing your dishes, or whatever. The next day, I came back to school, I was sick before, I had no idea what happened. Your father was making sure I wouldn't speak to you. Then one day, you told me we could secretly date; It didn't last long, then you dated my friend- not a close friend, but a friend. I tried telling her you were a cheater, because you were kissing on me, and I didn't say you could; She didn't believe me. Then, we dated/ talked off and on. In August, we hung out, I told you I was gay and had a boyfriend, you were all over me, and I kept moving away, then I did nothing, it wouldn't stop you; You had a girlfriend then, and I didn't want to do anything weird, just hang out. You got mad with me for standing up for something I thought was wrong. You insulted me, told me I am not special, all rude and sick shit. I don't know if I hate you or what. I have no idea if you liked me. I just want to know if you actually liked me. "

"Still dating but something's changed, it's only a matter of time before something happens. I liked you unrequitedly for 2 years, and the year I stopped, you started chasing me. We started dating, shortly I thought I was falling in love. But now... you're gone. You used to make so much effort but now nothing. I'm the one initiating all the conversations, dates, and when I text you it takes literally hours to reply (once you waited 2 days to reply! and for no reason-- you just told me you didn't feel like it!). I don't feel very happy. I give you so much and I get very little in return. I don't even want much... man... I want SO little. Just a single text a day, just to let me know you're alive and happy and doing ok. But you can't even do that. And I know it's small, but you refuse to compromise. Compromise is so important... something so little you cannot even do for me? What are we going to do when we reach a big problem? You can't just ignore problems away. I love you... but it's over. Good bye."

"You are not my first love but I know that I am yours, and that is just too much for me. I can't be with someone who constantly has to be with be every time we are together. I need space and I need freedom. You need to stop being so protective of me. Just because I have a picture of me with another guy does not mean I am replacing you. If you thought I was a loyal girlfriend you wouldn't be so worried all the time. And if i'm being completely honest I am not as attracted to you as you are to me. This relationship is bound to fail sooner or later but I don't know if I should end it now. I'm sorry and I love you, just not as much as you think."

"if I could have one wish it'd be for you, you always saw everyone else before me but once you saw me it just wasn't the right time and other things were wrong and I guess that just means that this isn't right but that doesn't make it any easier to let you, we never started but we already ended, I waited over a year to have nothing and still get my heart broken, I shouldn't have come back."

"I did love you I really did, it's not like my first love where I would literally die for her it's a different love but your constant nagging and what's good for you ain't for me business has driven me to the edge, you are so boring as a person it's not funny you have no interests outside of finishing work and putting your feet up and watching tv, you don't do anything and your cbf attitude really bothers me! Your a great mother to our children I can't fault you on that, head jobs OMG! But too rare to really care for anymore. Some nights I HATE being here. I want a divorce!!"

"I like you, I really do. You treat me like a queen. But I just feel like being with you means having a boyfriend who is clingy, and just won't let go. A boyfriend who follows me everywhere, and is breathing over my shoulder when I'm with my friends, at lunch, at recess, begging the teacher, in public, to sit next to me in every class we have together. I couldn't be more sincere that I like you, but I just can't bring myself to love you, no matter how hard I try. And I think part of the reason is that when you're around me do much my l lust to see you just isn't there anymore. I can't say that I'm sorry and feel sincere when you don't have a place in my heart anymore. All I can bring myself to say is, a relationship just can't be too serious when you're twelve years old. I just hope you don't take it to hard the next time you call me. "

"Know that I really did love you..."

"My first love left me when I was 18. I have not seen or spoken to him since. I am now 24 and have been dating someone else for 3 and a half years. I still think about my ex everyday and am still in love with him."

"I thought I was in love with him.. But now I feel like I just love him . I want things to work but I don't see it because of how he handles conversations. It's like he doesn't care. "

"I always will love you."

"You weren't mine in the first place."

"Brandon, i love u i truly do! But so many times u have talk to Mia Peyton! And im 99.999999% chance u like her everyone says you do! Its really hard to be dating you AGAIN!! This is our thrid time dating and i just dont think its working, I love u with all my heart and its breaking my heart to go this way but i will get through this sooner or later!"

"I will always love you."

"If we break up nothing will change. I'll still love you. Even through all of these emotions and turns in our relationship i will always care and i will always remember. But at the same time, i am not sure if this relationship is good for me. We don't communicate well, and that's what ruined our first relationship. I've been hurting for a while now and i know it's hard to understand, it's hard to explain emotion but there is always a reason. I am at the point where i am questioning our relationship, because we keep putting things off and we never solve any of our problems, but you'll say we did. I don't think you truly get me, because if you hadn't known that you've been hurting me for this long.. it makes me feel even worse. Sure we've had a ton of fun together but at the end of the day I'm still thinking about our unsolved issues that we put on the top shelf. It's hard to believe that you, my first love, could ever be apart from me. I don't want to sound selfish, but i don't want love if it's not with you. I couldn't get over you. Even though you put me through hell, i still care and i always try my best to show it. Being frustrated almost all the time gets the better of my tongue sometimes because since i feel like you have started to care less... i guess it makes me want to care less. I want this to work just as much as you do but i hate this emotional torture you have been putting me through. I want to have answers and solutions just as much as you do if not more, but we need to work together. And if we can't work together than we have to work something out, because if we don't, then i think we might need different things. Maybe i think too much but all my thoughts are of you."

"I care alot about you but I have doubts."

"I like the fact that I am the only guy you have had sexual activities with. But your boobs aren't good enough. I think about my ex or random girls every time we do it. Probably should just leave you."

"He is ex right now he does not care about me at all he won't even talk to me that asshole"

"I loved you the most I could ever love someone... but we're drying up. We're dying. We used to talk for hours, we couldn't be kept away from each other. Then at the 14 month mark, we began drifting away. At first it wasn't very obvious, but now we've resorted to a good morning/goodnight text and we barely speak in school. You may be comfortable in this routine-based relationship, but I can't go on like this. I'm starting to forget about you... Maybe you should've payed more attention to me. Maybe you should've tried harder to make it feel like you loved me, because now we act like strangers. I can't do this anymore. I'm so sorry."

"For once could you please not constantly ask me about doing the little things. I think about the big picture constantly and all you do is complain about the little tiny details that I don't do so just shut the fuck up for once in your life. We have this conversation constantly and I am getting tired of it. Sorry that I have AP classes and tests that I have to study for and I'm sorry that that cuts into our time together but please don't give me shit about ok"

"We are too different to be together... your so irresponsible and me I'm in the leadership club, I used to be in the debating team and I didn't care, you thought about it, but baled because you were afraid people would tease you. Grow up, please. I love you too much to let you go. I will decide whether or not to end it on my birthday... two weeks and a day to go. Don't worry I'll make my decision. "

"I wish I hadn't loved you; you were such a waste of my first love. But for what it's worth, I did mean all those things I said to you. And even if you didn't, I did at one point love you with all my heart."

"I really wish you would learn to be more considerate, and I don't say that lightly. I should have known you wouldn't take me into account back in high school when you promised to meet me in our usual spot after school and left me waiting for you for 20 minutes before I texted you and you said you were already at home, that you forgot. Or when I told you our frequent sexual acts made me very uncomfortable and you continued to pressure me for a month before I brought it up again and you said "oh we're still doing that? I thought you got over it since you didn't say anything about it again." It was only when you outright said "sorry, I get caught up in what I want and don't take you into consideration" that I finally decided you're just naturally inconsiderate and that no amount of love or setting an example from me would ever change that. Whether you change now for me or later when I can't take it anymore, you should really do yourself that favor and quit being so selfish."

"You took my virginity and i thought i really liked you but i dont. Sorry. Have a great life and try to grow up a little, or a lot. "

"I am falling for another girl. I like what we have going but I don't know what I want. You were the first girl I ever fell in love with and I'll love you forever."

"I thought I was in love before, but I was just a child. There's no one like you. My best friend. I wish it could work out for us like you wanted. I love you and want you to be with someone who is right for you. This is so hard because you are the closest person to me and I don't want to lose you. I feel so bad but this is the right thing to do."

"He loved my ex-best friend and didn't tell me because we had just stopped being friends 5 months later I broke up with him I started dating someone new shortly after and he told me that he loved her anyway and that's why he wasn't upset and I had a feeling that there was something there between them but couldn't admit that I wasn't good enough for him, I still cry about it every night and my current boyfriend doesn't know I am still in pain but I think he loves his" best friend" to guess what she was my best friend before the last one. Why am I never good enough, for anyone"

"I do love him but we broke up a few times before and I just don't know because I do like this other guy and he seems pretty cool. I just don't really know if I should break up with him or not because I feel like I can't live without him, it's just so confusing in my mind"

"Sorry but its for the best u r shy(in public) and I am loud and CRAZY!!!😋 I am really sorry I 💛💙💜💚❤💗💓💕💖💞💘 u but I think it's time to 💔 so bye 😢😭😪😥😰😓😩😫😨😱😔😞😣"

"I like you... we never said love, it's to much of a strong word. It was our thing you hurt me physically and mentally and i know I did the same. But I was just taking quiz because I was bored and I answered the questions right, so babe don't be mad at me. U know that we are perfect with each other no matter what. "

"I love you and I hope one day you may come back to me. You will always be my baby and I will always be yours. I hope to see you again."

"i love him so much but sometime i feel like we should part. we both love each other but i feel as if he doesn't love me as much as i love him. i just wish i knew what to do. we want a future but then again we are both 12 so i don't know... :("

"I love you. I always will love you. You're my first true love...but recently it's been really difficult to see a future with us. As much as I want to see it, I feel as if we view a lot of things differently and we just aren't good for each other. As friends, I believe we are. But in a relationship, I honestly don't think we're right for each other. I will always have feelings for you, and this hurts me so much to say. I've been pondering it for days because I didn't want it to come to this. But I've been thinking about wanting to date other people and I've been thinking about sex with other people, and that just doesn't feel right to me since you're monogamous and I want to respect you. In the end, I think it's time for me to say...I don't think we're right for each other and should end it all right now. I'm so sorry, ...I hope you understand."

"Yes my dear, I love you so so much that I become irrational. That's why you're the one that brings me back to reality. I know we all have problems, baggage, pain. I am here to help you overcome it. Even when I get mad and say things that I don't mean. I keep thinking back to when we first started dating, how we were so reckless, losing our virginity in your parents basement. I wish you wouldn't worry so much. I miss your loving touch. I can't help but feel that I am the one who is breaking everything apart. I don't know what is happening to us. How do we fix this? I need to let you know that I love you"

"You used to be my best friend, and you only used me because you knew I was emotionally weak. You had no rights to do any of the things you did to me, yet I was too scared to say no. Maybe I even thought I would like it, but the way you threatened me into staying was miserable. I'm glad I said goodbye. I should have said goodbye sooner, before I was broken. It has taken months to forget you, and your wicked ways. I have had others since you, and the pain you left me with has only poisoned them too. I will never be whole again. You have raped me of my pride and threw my emotions out to the curb. All of your twisted lies and promises. I don't know why we humans are attracted to darkness, but at least in your darkness I learned to find my own light. I had to save myself. There is no hero to save the day, and you were most definitely not my savior. ~to the past "

"im sorry that it ended this way. truthfully it should have never started. I dont know why i felt the need to take your virginity so dearly that i dated you to do so."

"We started dating when I was a senior and he was 21. We dated for 7 years. I lost my virginity to him. He cheated on me our entire relationship but I was too scared to leave because he gave me herpes and I felt like damaged goods. Plus I was unconditionally in love with him...I should have left him after the first time I found out he cheated on me. I would have never gotten herpes. He broke my heart and married 2 months after me. He still texts me and asks how I am. It's been over a year and I still cry over him. I hate him and love him at the same time. I'll always love him..."

"You are a scamming peice of shit. I WAS a virgin before i met you, then I stupidly fell for the same words you've used on every girl before. You have cheated on me twice and now you don't even want to talk about because it hurts your feelings. FUCK YOU!! I've attempted suicide over you lying about that shit. Once I leave you I probably will try again. Why would anyone want me now anyhow? I have gave birth. My vagina is probably lose because you purposely knocked me up WITHOUT my consent."

"Im sorry and sad to I know I will love you more than anyone else in my life"

"I love you a lot and think that you're a great person, but the way you deal with stress and pressure is very destructive. You lash out at me and say you're sorry afterward but then you just do it again. I understand things get difficult at times, but I don't think I can be with someone who loses their cool at the first sign of trouble. I know this is your first relationship and we've had a lot of great memories and times together, but I really don't think we were meant to last. I'm so sorry. "

"Sometimes I just don't think you want to spend time with me, I just want to be with you all the time and you seem to just go do whatever"

"we were best friends and then i thought i loved him, he asked me out and i had my first boyfriend. Now i realize we were better before than we are now, its all to fake on my side and i dont want to hurt him. But now i have no choice.""

""We were friends before and had a good relationship but now i feel forced to love him. I don't want to hurt him and my best friend thinks i should keep giving him a chance but i guess i don't really love him. This was my first boyfriend and he instantly thought we would be together forever and i just never felt the same. I hope we can just be friends!""

"I dont know why I don't love you I wish I did but being with you doesn't feel right. Im sorry"

"I wish we were still the same people we were when we started dating witch was 12 I love you a lot and I'm not listening to this site "

"I love you I am just not in love with you and I don't want to drag this on because I don't have intimate feelings for you anymore. The truth is I feel the same way about you as I do about any of my other friends and I don't want to stay in this relationship where I can't return the feelings that you have for me."

"I truly believed that you were the one. I waited for you for so long and when I finally got you it felt like a dream... I guess it was too good to be true."

"Look your one of the coolest people i've met and you've a impact on my life but I think its time we just stay off as friends"

"I'll always love you and you're my best friend in the world, but things just don't feel right anymore and I don't think it's fair to either of us if we continue along this path."

"I'm really sorry... if I break up with you I am so so sorry. I know that you really like me and I really like you as a friend... but this relationship thing is just not working for me. It's going to be hard for you to get over... trust me, I've been in your position myself and that's the reason I have been to reluctant to break up with you. I just hope we can still be friends."

"I hurt you so bad. I took your virginity and you were perfect to me."

"Every since the beginning things have been awkward, too awkward i thought that as we have dated longer and longer it would go away, but it didn't. you talk about how you want to makout and kiss, cuddle all of those things, but in person you are distant and shy nothing feels right. i wish you would realize that you don't need to be shy and awkward idk why you do that, but i will give you one more chance to be non shy and awkward, please take it and act as if i am actually your girlfriend and you care about me, all those times you've said i love you, i don't believe you and I'm sorry but you've never said it in person, never called, barly hug/kiss/hold my hand i just can't do it anymore, not like this."

"Well he has been very annoying lately, like he went to a party and tried hiding it from me like last week and since then I just can't trust anything he tells me like if he falls asleep while messaging me I think hes going to parties or something. I can't trust him at all and I'm not sure if I'm losing feelings or I'm just annoyed by his stupidity."

"I love my boyfriend so so very much, I want to be with him for the rest of my life 💘 But I just want things to get better ."

"I really did love you. Not that it matters."

"I love you but I am not sure who you are."

"Hey I'm young and i can spend the rest of my life with you. Which I'm willing to do.. however the thought of not being able to sleep with other woman ever frightens me. Its not you its me. "

"i just dont want to hurt him"

"I think about him everyday, and it's been almost three years. The pain will never go away, it's barley faded wish your addiction to me was stronger than your addiction to meth. "

"I've never loved anyone the way I love you. But I feel like you make time for everything except for me, and everything has priority over me. You keep growing more distant, and I try to give you some space, but then you just take it to the next level and make me feel as if I'm losing you. I just wish you'd understand how you make me feel without me having to spell it out."

" I love you, I really did my best and sorry I was a failure. I want you to flourish and prosper in every avenue you journey down. Take care of yourself and be safe.."

"I love you and I wish you could love me the same. I wish we could make things work."

"Forgive me, first love, but i'm tired. I need to get away to feel again. Try to understand why. Dont get so close to change my mind."